A breakthrough about prayer!

I was speaking with my sister this morning and she told me the most profound thing. I was telling her that I have been having a hard time feeling like I was receiving answers to my big questions in my prayers. She told me to pray to know if Heavenly Father loves me, of course he does and I will feel that wonderful Spirit, then I should ask about the decision that I had made, and if the Spirit stays then the decision was good, and if it leaves I received my answer in the negative. Easy enough, right? :) I have been trying to feel what is right to do about vaccines with my son, who we haven't given any, and also when is the right time to have another child. I'll be praying hard!!!

To be a little better.

It's a new week and that brings new resolve and new viggor to be a better wife, mother, and person in general. It really hit me yesterday that I was not doing my part of our marriage to try to be a little better every day. If I truly was a better person today than yesterday--everyday---then I would be a much better wife and mother. I decided yesterday that it is soooo important that I keep our home clean and in order. It just "feels" better as a whole. I believe that we would be kinder and nicer and have a better feeling in our home. It is hard because my eight month old feels like his co-pilot position is right on my hip. That makes cleaning a little difficult, but maybe I need to be a little more creative. I am trying to think of neat routines that we can start now as a little family and have them stick and run through us when our family is bigger. It's hard for me to figure out what routines will work, but all I need to do is try... and try to do better tomorrow than I did today.

Live in the NOW.

Wow. Being a mom is all about patience isn't it? I have had a wonderful Saturday and have loved every minute with my family. I am doing my best to find joy in the NOW and the little things that happen every day. I can't live my life saying that I will be happy TOMORROW. Because if I live in the tomorrows of life I will end up with a lot of empty yesterdays. Also, what if tomorrow never comes? I will cry about what I didn't do today. Now this doesn't mean that I shouldn't plan for the future, it just means I should live every day with the kindness and charity as if it where my last.

My son is soooo precious. I want to list a few things that he does that just makes me so happy. :) Lately he has been chuckling to himself all of the time for no apparent reason. He even has done this waking up from a nap. It's like a smirky chuckle. It's soo funny. He also has been saying "ba ba ba ba". My husband loves the happy face that my son makes when he throws him in the air and catches him. My son also loves blonds and computer screens and key boards. He is worth every second of grief, if any that he gives me.